Tormented – A Poem About Eating Disorders.

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I’m a war unto myself, gambling away my health,
Raging mood swings, feeling faint as my head swims-
From lack of food
An empty void occupies my tummy; my days are dark and cease to be sunny,
I am possessed by the image I have conceived in my mind,
An image that is impossible to find,
I carry this heavy burden on my back, venturing further and further down-
This lonely track…
Further and further from who I used to be,
When I look in the mirror I no longer recognize me,
Bones protrude from underneath my skin; voluptuous, womanly curves are missing,
I resemble a tormented child; constant calorie counting is driving me wild,
Baggy clothes help to camouflage by diminishing form, I appear isolated and withdrawn,
Vast circles eclipse my eyes, my body communicates with weary sighs,
Do you think I want to be like this? But the temptation is hard to resist,
As my weight continues to plummet, I am closer to scaling my summit,
Yet guilt overwhelms me – I cannot meet my parents eyes filled with anguish and pity
But how can I tell them the thought of food fills me with dread?
Or, that I would rather listen to the ferocious growls of hunger instead?
Now a year has passed and I have moved on,
I have acknowledged my actions were wrong,
Although I have not reached my ideal weight,
I am content and in a good mind state.
Now when I look in the mirror I am confronted with a smiling me,
The version of myself I always wanted to be…
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